From the beginning, Christ captivated me. The first few years of my walk involved a lot of clean up: breaking of bad habits and getting rid of obvious sins. Drinking, smoking (neither of which I consider to be sinful necessarily), swearing, stealing, gluttony. These were my battles. My life became clean enough to comfortably go to church without standing out. This wasn’t my goal but it happened none-the-less. Once these were dealt with I found myself longing for something deeper. I wanted to experience Christ more fully because I longed for Him.
Some twenty-five years ago, about two or three years after I became a Christian, I started reading books that promised to show me the “keys to going deeper”. Among these, common themes were explored: prayer, dying to self, living in position, acute focus etc. Each had a unique way of explaining it, or an emphasis particular to an author, but ultimately all said about the same thing. Read the rest of this entry »