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On the Lighter Side: Run for Your Mule!

stubborn muleForgive me, I can’t help myself.  Perhaps you can chuckle with me, even if it is at something in the Bible.

2 Sam 13:29 always makes me smirk. It reads: “And the servants of Absalom did to Amnon just as Absalom had commanded.”  Perhaps I’m just warped, but the next part makes me smile.

The king’s sons were panicked. They didn’t casually get up to leave, they jumped up and ran out the door.  If they weren’t fearing they were the next one to be killed they were fearing retribution from King David for being a part of the murder of his son Amnon.  They were freaked out and they knew that this tent was not the place to be.

Which brings me to the part I find funny.  If you were going to run for your life, how would you do it?  Would you dash for your mule?    Wouldn’t you rather kick your sandals off and run like mad?   Apparently I have a very stereotypical view of the mule. Panic stricken over the murder of their brother, the king’s sons jumped on their mules and ran away (at 5 mph)…

 
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Posted by on April 30, 2013 in Lighter Side

 

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The Light Bulb that Everyone Saw Before You

I shared something that I thought was marvelous with a friend this week.  It was a concept I saw clearly for the first time but only after intense and prolonged introspection and careful study.  Guess what?  They already knew it.

I wrestle with thoughts fiercely.  Even the most simple understandings I flip over and over in my head, examine, question and verify.  Often this takes much time, extensive reading and deep thought. I am the quintessential theologian, I ask why and how about everything and I tend to keep asking those things long after others are satisfied.

This is why it can be maddening to me to share an insight I’ve had.   After passionately explaining what I see and how I came to that conclusion, I look into the eyes of my hearer and realize that they already knew what to me, is brand new.  I get an enthusiastic nod, and hear, “yes, I totally agree” and then no more comment. If I wait long enough, they will yawn.  And I am left speechless.

Am I a dolt?  Am I just that much slower than the rest in dissecting and analyzing my beliefs?  It has happened enough that I expect this to be a possible response when I share anything with another.

So, of course I had to think about this.  How can others already understand so quickly what I have to spend years studying, though they are not given to that type of study?  After dismissing the idea that they are faking understanding (these are godly, honest people I trust) I’m left with the reality that they probably DO understand what has taken me months and months to come by.

How can that be?  Of course, they may have wrestled with the thoughts before me, but I don’t think that is the case in many of these situations.  So what’s up?

It's a sphere!

It’s a sphere!

Do you believe the world in round?  So do I and I’ve probably spent as much time thinking about it as you, which is pretty close to not at all.  Despite not thinking about it, I get it, we’re not living on a pancake but a hacky sack.  Yet there are those who have spent close to a whole career studying the round nature of the earth and how that relates to everything else in our solar system.  They get it, but on a much deeper level, not in a superior sense, we both get the world is round, but their understanding is richer.

One can know a thing on many levels- the deepness isn’t the essential part, knowing is.

Understanding “God is love” is a wonderful insight.  You may come to that idea easily where another must first deal with the problem of evil, difficult passages, previous paradigms, the concept of feelings and what it means to exist.  If you are as messed up as me you will probably first have to analyze what love is first before you can even begin to entertain the idea of God being loving.  Then you have to separate loving acts from the embodiment of love and on and on it goes.  After years of deliberation, the deep mind comes to the same conclusion as the one steadied on simple faith: “God is love”.  Though the thinker probably had already accepted that in faith, they have examined it so minutely that when they come to the conclusion it seems to be a brand new understanding.

So is thinking deeply a waste of time or worse, some form of vanity?

While it certainly can be a type of vanity and lead to fat-headed pride, the humble heart is simply intrigued and wants to understand because they are insatiably curious.  They have a drive to comprehend.  It is the artist in them.  Going deeper into a simple idea often reveals connections, patterns, textures and richness to the ideal that is difficult to express unless one has meditated upon it.   It reveals the story behind the title.  It is not a waste of time.  It is a blessing.

And so, if you are bent like me, I encourage you, thinking deeply can be a blessing, even if most everyone else thinks you’re a bit daft for marveling at the qualities of a sphere.

 
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Posted by on April 5, 2013 in Spiritual Gifts

 

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Silent Tongue

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Dare I speak on such a day?  I cannot.

(Oh foolish tongue!  What can you muster in light of this?!)

“Thank you Jesus.”  ……Pathetic.

(Silence.)

 
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Posted by on March 29, 2013 in Quips from the Short Sage

 

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Lonely Soul: A really bad poem (you should read)

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So a phrase came into my head and I started writing.  After about ten minutes I became annoyed that all of my sentences had a cadence and ended in rhyme but I couldn’t seem to help myself.  Weird.   Anyways, I kept trying to rework it in my normal style and found myself reverting back to cadence each time.  I am no poet, heavens no, but I have given up on trying to express this thought in other ways.

Here’s my really bad free verse (?) -seriously- this is embarrassing, but if you read it out loud and pretend you are at a beat club, maybe, hopefully, it will speak to you.

It is an odd and sorrowful truth, that the more one is pulled in, and the firmer the grasp and will become, the lonelier the soul becomes.

For a season is entered where the pleasures and vices are habitually shunned and your comrades are found to be few, perhaps there is none.  You expose the wonders your eyes have seen and wait for the tug, the grasp of your hand, but the stare is blank.  The nod is there, but a suspicion persists that you did not get it, though you gave thanks.   How in the church, amidst like-minded souls, do I feel bereft and so out in the cold?

Then a Jonathon comes along… not many, it seems two, more likely one, but there he is!  And your heart soars for his soul, his presence, his tongue.  A kindred fire is a soothing balm, for the company of a crowd is replaced by one.

A lonely road, it is taken by few.  But praises!  Trapped in heaven’s solitude, I am not so lonely, I am filled, and I have you.  Time goes by, and deeper I go.  Peace.   I look and startle how one Jonathan has increased.

……Now you are hearing lots of snapping by really polite people….. In all honestly, I am coming to see the blogging community this way.  Blessings to all of you.

 
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Posted by on March 25, 2013 in Uncategorized

 

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Nasty Life Laundry

My sister was arrested this week for two felonies.  All week I have grappled with how I am going to approach the very difficult phone call I need to make to her.

I thought quite a bit about the stupidity of her actions and the evil behind them.  Of course, you know where that led my Christian heart, right back to my own.  I can’t cast a stone, in the past I’ve done similar things and was lucky enough not to have been caught.   Which made me start wondering if I really got away with it Of course God knows my sin, I didn’t get away with it in that sense.  I have confessed the old and try to keep a short account of the new, repented of the whole lot, and I am fully convinced I am forgiven. Condemnation for it is removed from me because of the sacrifice of Christ and my sin is removed from me as far as the East is from the West.  Because of my repentant faith in Him, I am unquestionably forgiven.

My sister’s arrest was in the news.  Her alleged wrong doing is common knowledge if you happen to live where she does.  My dirty laundry never made it to the papers or the local TV news. So in that sense, did I get away with it?  Will it never be brought up again?  Will I get through eternity without anyone but God and I seeing the real me?  Read the rest of this entry »

 
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Posted by on March 20, 2013 in Never Saw That Before, Sin

 

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I respect those I admire.The Thinker

I can show respect to those I do not admire.

but…

I can not respect those I do not admire.

Strange, subtle difference.

I can respect those I do not admire but not in the same sense that I respect those whom I do admire. Make sense? I can hold one in high regard and at the same time not respect much about them.

 
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Posted by on March 11, 2013 in Quips from the Short Sage

 

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The Pencil Speaks To Me

thispencilI watched my son as he did his work today, struggling yet persisting with this pencil. I asked if he wouldn’t like to use one of the new ones I bought to replace this old one. He refused, in fact, he adamantly resisted the idea.

“Silly, stubborn boy,” I thought.

I continued to watch him and then stopped when I suddenly saw myself. God prevail in me to throw away all of the old pencils in my life, and use the new He gave me, that sits there waiting for me, waiting for me to discard the old one.

 

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Hating Tamar

I think I have finally come to understand Amnon, which is big news because I have always just considered him to be one of the ten top jerks found in the Bible.

Reading 2 Samuel 13, I first find myself sympathetic to him since he is overcome with infatuation.  Amnon is powerfully drawn to Tamar, his step-sister, and is consumed with thoughts of her.   His desire for her leads to his scheme to get near her.  So far, everything is understandable though admittedly, not desirable.  Infatuation is an intensely powerful experience and it tempts us to force the matter with all sorts of silly schemes. Up to this point he is not acting any different than anyone I have ever known. Then, we move on to the rape, where he crosses a big line, a really, really, big, ugly line.  He now enters into self-centered jerk territory.

What has always puzzled me though are his feelings immediately afterward:  “Then Amnon hated her with intense hatred.  In fact, he hated her more than he had loved her.” 2 Samuel 13:15

Huh?  Where did that come from?  He uses her and then kicks her out without even an apology. Exceptional jerk.

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You know that verse that talks about how if you judge others you end up judging yourself?  As it turns out, I am an exceptional jerk as well.

I think Amnon hated her so passionately because he blamed her for his own sin.

I was reading a post by Cracked.com on Five ways Modern Men are Trained to Hate Women when all the dots connected regarding this verse.  In the authors opinion, men learn to hate women because women hold power over them because of the man’s desire for sex.  Furthermore, women threaten to ruin them as men are prone to think sexually in highly inappropriate contexts.  Sounds like Amnon fits that to a tee.

But is it justified?

I thought about the things I most passionately hate.  Nothing had to do with sex,

But…

I saw that what I despised were things that have in the past made me look foolish, and that I criticize the most things that I fear could make me look foolish in the future.

We tend to aggressively criticize things that hold a sway in our being.  If my love for something or someone reflects poorly on who I am, eventually I will hate it for the conflict it causes within me.

There is a good chance that the things you and I feel most vehemently against are actually things we condemn because we are scared to death that they will condemn us.  We most passionately hate the things that have power over us.

 
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Posted by on February 16, 2013 in Spiritual Growth

 

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That was not the Cross

cross1On my mind almost constantly as of late are two things: the call to love and the call of the cross.  A glimpse of something deeper came into my consciousness today which centered on the call of the cross.

“If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross daily and follow me.” Luke 9:23

I have sought to take up the cross daily but honestly there is not much in my life that seemed powerful enough to be classified as such. I have chosen His will over my own, sometimes struggling for a lengthy time to comply.  I have done what I deemed as uncomfortable for Christ. I have done as He has asked when I would rather have not.  I have tried to die to myself in all things, and it is hard.  I suppose you could say in some way I suffered with these crosses, but really, ‘I wrestled with these crosses’ is probably a better description. Read the rest of this entry »

 
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Posted by on February 5, 2013 in Sin, Spiritual Growth

 

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The Tragedy of Copping out on Fasting

When I was a newer Christian I occasionally asked people to fast with me.  After awhile I stopped asking others because the responses became typical.  “No…not right now…I can’t because…I’ll pray along with you though….”

The early church fasted a lot yet we almost never do.  When we do fast we tend to do it, as I affectionately call it, Catholic style. Think Lent. We pick something pretty mundane that we won’t terribly miss or an item we have been meaning to wean ourselves from anyways. I’m not slamming Catholics, just saying that is how our family and all the others I knew did it.

I should be clear here, I don’t fast a lot either, certainly not every week as was the habit of earlier Christians. I don’t like going without anymore than the next person. I do fast, but probably not as much as I should so I’m not holding myself out as the example to follow. Despite that, I have picked up a tidbit or two and that is what I’ll share here. Read the rest of this entry »

 
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Posted by on January 16, 2013 in Fasting

 

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